Just One Day

One normal day. Nothing crazy. No unexpected calls or texts. No live updates from the hospital. 

Yesterday was just one day and it was great.

One day at a time is what we kept telling ourselves, forcing ourselves to remember. We couldn't go back in time and we couldn't plan too far ahead, either. Insurance claims, retirement, moving in, moving out. Every conversation felt premature because Pa was still in the hospital. The unexpected could happen at any time. 

We're never guaranteed tomorrow. All we have is today.

What do you know about tomorrow? How can you be so sure about your life? It is nothing more than mist that appears for only a little while before it disappears. - James 4:14

We got a text this morning asking to help move an electric bed to her home. She was in a lot of pain and didn't have the strength to walk up the stairs. An hour later, we found out she was rushed to the ER for all the pain she was in. 

Just one day. One normal day is all we got yesterday. It was wonderful. Things felt 'normal'. 

Complaining about this one day makes me feel like I'm being ungrateful for the gift of another day. I'm grateful. There is so much to be grateful for with Pa home.  

But here we are again, underwater, grasping for something to keep us afloat.

Just one day. She may not have many more "just one days". This could be one long day that will count us down to her last. 

One day at a time. That's all we can handle.

We can only see what's in front of us. In some ways, it's a blessing to not be able to be in multiple places at once. Imagine the horror of splitting yourself apart, of knowing more than you were created to know. I have to remind myself that I'm a whole person too, a whole person that has a whole life and body that needs my care first, no matter how selfish it sounds. 

But our broken hearts were just beginning to mend again. Now we're having to pick up all the pieces again. Some pieces are at home, some are in cities many kilometres away, and now some are at another hospital, waiting for help. Reprieve. Rest.

Just one day. Tomorrow will be another. Maybe. We don't really know. 

One day at a time.

We never give up. Our bodies are gradually dying, but we ourselves are being made stronger each day. These little troubles are getting us ready for an eternal glory that will make all our troubles seem like nothing. Things that are seen don't last forever, but things that are not seen are eternal. This is why we keep our minds on the things that cannot be seen. - 2 Corinthians 4:16-18